cold

I know, I'm whining, I'm being emo. But, if I could help it, I wouldn't want this at all.

It feels like I'm facing cold spell deep down. I don't know what to face anymore towards the relationship.

Seriously, everyday I'm just so afraid to hear him tell me, "Ger, I'm going." I don't know how I'd react to this. I'm scared.

Being devoted to this relationship for 6 years, I suddenly realize my life is disastrous without him. And I want to get myself out of this. Really. Help....

I've no idea how to face him and pretend everything is okay. The longer this drags, the worse I feel everyday.

I know he's vexed enough. Pressing him for an answer won't help anything. I can only do the thing i hate most.

Wait. Wait. Wait.

I know something for sure, I want him to make a decision he will never look back and regret. His decision will decide the next phase of this relationship.

Bless us.