...swayed....

office has been quite volcanic lately..

the sales duo (my manager and myself) are struggling with the work, while the boss always go MIA. what good assistance is he providing...

as matter of fact, whether he's here or not, its not important. ha. all complains, clients, rejection cases will be passed to us to handle. he just needs to come and sign our paycheques monthly will do.

anyway, i went for interview 2 days back. im hitting the nails and i guess tonnes more are coming. . .

the interviewers asked - can you write? are you creative? - what kind of answers do they expect? i wont possibly say no nor will i say excellent. ha. but it did pop me a huge question mark - can i do it?

im filled with question marks myself. what kind of a marketer will i be? now its rather tough to get a marketing job, so, im trying my luck elsewhere instead. now, im looking for what interests me & i'd take it. afterall, we need to be enjoying the work to get work done. life's tough, why make things tougher for myself.

so since im still in a job, i'd take 1 step at a time...

one of our friends went for their wedding photo shoots at sentosa on the day i went for interview..and i tagged along after that. took pictures of sunset on my hp, haven had time to load it. will do that soon together with the BBK pics. it was darn relaxing..got a beer at KM8, watching sunset and chatting with wei & another friend.

Life's good......

in need of a new starting point

im desperately looking for job..

i've got an interview this thursday evening. but this coy doesnt look like the kind i like. more of an education and training industry. kinda boring. but as long as i get the exposure to marketing, why not. its not too bad also.

i finally realised why he refuses to confirm me. cuz once he does that, he needs to include me in the bonus payout this month-end. thats why he's dragging it. disgustingly sickening right? i got to only know about this today. and i finally made it very clear to my manager, i will not sign any confirmation letter if it finally appears.

and now, he's trying to lure a new girl in my coy in another dept to join the sales and marketing team. according to my manager, he stopped her from elaborating about turnover rate here, and refused to tell her the mission-impossible sales quota here. LIAR..i have a liar as a boss.

worse still, he tried to pain a beautiful picture of the sales team. so gross to even think of it as beautiful. maybe its a pile of beautiful shit she needs to face when she's here. saying we all will provide her with the existing leads pipeline. awwww...hope she wont be that stupid to agree without talking to my manager.

im hoping that this thursday's interview will be the start of all other interviews. gimme more interviews! ha..im going crazy here while pinning for 6pm and thinking about new job every single minute.

other than work, everything else's fine and normal. happy with how things are going with my family and love life of course. just worried about the U postings that will be out i think in april. hopefully they/he will give me a good birthday present. i just need a better job with good prospects.

time for a change

its dreadful to come work today...

back in this boring place, clearing the emails..

i sent a couple of resumes yesterday, hopefully i get some replies soon..

its so administrative and routine, i think i can do things with my eyes closed. its fucking boring!

making hotel reservations, be a human answering machine all day long, receptionist work..to hell with it..

i'm having a real strong urge to tender. i find this job a real waste of time. i hate to waste time.

marketing coordinator, which part of it is marketing?!

the most turn-off thing is, last week before i left for BBK, that boss came to me and ask about leads. he's restrictive in doing advertisements in the higher-end newspapers (such as straits times), don't even want to give a try in executive magazines, saying its too expensive (where its just less than $3K) - tell me - where the hell will leads drop from?

kept talking to me about cost. i jolly well understand the theory - ROI. the coy has no identity, no identification of where our fucking clients are, nothing. 2 poor girls in the sales and marketing team are stuck in a haystack. arghhh! i had enough of this.

may my prayers be heard...

back from my CNY trip - Bangkok

its a darn tiring trip..

but can't really make out whether its fun or not..ha..kinda complicated & mixed feelings..

i guess it would've been a better trip if its just us, my family..

firstly, my dad is a man filled with responsibility & concern for others...but sometimes he kinda over-do it, and make people hard to appreciate his doings.

good intention, bad execution. i sort of flare up at him a couple of times the past few days, unintentionally..so now im quite feeling guilty..ha..probably im too tired...i'd make it up to him..

another thing is, mum, full of complains, think i inherited some of it from her..haha...donno if its good or bad..

but on the whole, its time spent with everyone, except for my brother who didnt go cuz of exams..

we bought a whole lot of things, took lotsa face-tired pictures..ha..so damn ugly with the eye bags & dark circles..we all lack sleep...

during these few days, i missed him damn alot..got tngs for almost everyone ard me, hopefully i didnt forget anyone. ha.

dad spoke to me about marriage yesterday, the topic i hated most. but he meant well, but i dont feel comfortable about it.

well, i kinda like my life now, so i don't see the point in talking about this now. besides, my love-life future is still stuck in a black tunnel. its not something i would want to think about. its too frustrating, i rather avoid it.

he's been trying to talk to me about this for a long time, i just simply brush it off by talking about something else. arghhh! i know he's got plans for us, but i just hope that they could put down their worries abit and start enjoying life now that they're healthy. thats the only wish i have for them, to stay healthy and enjoy life & be happy every single second.

its during this trip that i finally realised, we've all grown, i've grown older, they've also grown older and have new worries and hopes.

now that im back from this trip, i just hope to start everything all over again. get a new job, build a new relationship with the family. its time to let them understand what we kids hope for them. it seems to me, they only have worries and nothing else. its time they look at things in a different light.

i'd get the pictures out in another few days, let me have my piece of rest first, so darn tired. ha..gotta work tomorrow, damn sian..V day's coming, wonder if we're celebrating....

anyways, have a prosperous & happy new life this new year! muacks!