sleep's the best medicine..

i finally got to have a peaceful, dreamless sleep last night...its been 2 nights since i had a smooth-sailing sleep..im sooo tired..

housework's been managable but..im still not used to it..my left palm swell last night after doing it...glad its ok now...else...ha...will look like pork's knuckle..just not happy that 1 of my bros is not doing his work..and complaining the most..and the best thing is mum doesn't scold him at all! he's got 3 slaves serving him now and yet his msn nick was "life without a maid, might as well kill me". isn't he family too? im gonna take my eyes off him from now onwards and do my own part...make myself happier...

i got really upset yesterday, but..im fine after a night's sleep. i was really determined to have a deep, relaxing sleep to calm my nerves....its really hard for me to sleep know! but luckily i manage to, else i'd be fuming in my bed. haha..now, im fine..n over it...all i need is sleep..

work's the same......just looking forward to weekend's Sitex @ expo! wei n i are going...im going to get a digicam if its value for money, and he'd get a lappy...

he's going ord this friday, 30th...guess he'd be the happiest person on friday...2 yrs of torturing by them...

im wearing my new armani specs...got it at a discount..haha....feels good to be wearing sth new..haha....thats me...gotta go back to work now............................................

maid-less days....

im at work now...feeling lazy to do anything....

im maid-less now..gosh....tonnes of work at office and now, housework...my nightmare....its tiring to go back n have to climb up and down the stairs to clean everywhere. tear me apart now! quick!

for the past week, work's been hectic, but fine..did advertisements n stuff..kinda alright thou. my coy's very budget, so they have to bear with a 3rd class designer like me. haha...but then again, i found out this imaging software, Paint.net, freeware. acts as a good photoshop lookalike. its quite user-friendly thou, so anyone interested with it, can try it out. they even have forum to teach you how to do certain image editing, and lets u install plugins. quite fun thou...

for some reason, my youngest bro cried for no reason and got the whole house worried..i called him and he just simply cried over the phone...god, it broke my heart...and tears just lost control..its lousy to let lyana and joe see that... *blush*

and another thing, wei picked up 4 kittens yesterday afternoon....god they're cute...they're all strays...poor thing right...so he picked me up last night and brought the kittens along...i was really frightened at first when i saw them trying to crawl out of the basket...ha, i've never seen one so upclose and personal and they look so....tiny..but i just got used to them while on the way home in the car.

we then fed them at the playground near my house....so adorable....but darn noisy lor! im still not sure if he's going to put them at spca....but i got to know from joe n lyana that they will put it to sleep if no one claims them after 2 weeks....so inhumane...

so since they'd eventually put it to sleep, then wat exactly is spca for? anyone can put them to sleep? why do you even need an organisation to kill these animals? contridicting..its pointless then...imagine these kittens, new born, are being put to sleep 2 weeks after he leaves them there....haiz..i rather he not pick them up at all. its just like saving them and get them killed by sending them to spca if they don't get adopted...

hmmm....hope to see those kittens again..ha...noisy but adorable to see them trying to crawl around you and licking milk off your palm..

thats all for now, gotta get back to slogging.....

graduation
graduation is finally over....tiring man

it was fun when we all helped each other with the gowns..it was a very long ceremony..so tiring to sit there....

im glad yogesh came back, and all 4 of us are gathered together again...

im glad wei came to the ceremony....

im glad we got to take a pic with krishna..

before the graduation i was rather worried about the outcome of my degree...i got 2nd lower..so ok lar...ha..im not the study type....good enough already..overall, im glad its all over....we're going to have dinner with yogesh tonight...he's going back on tuesday..so fast..everyone's embarking on their career after graduation....and wonder when is the next time we'd see him...but i believe pris, sarah & i will still make it a point to catch up every now and then, and not forgetting jo & krishna of course...

past week
for the past week, i've been out almost every night..meet wei...and pris & yogesh to collect our gowns.

i've been reading stephine meyer's books....she's an author of children books...haha..but, its interesting..after reading her stories, i relate myself to the main character of the book, Bella. how she was torn apart from her loved one and how she struggle to make herself stronger by leaning on her friend..she's almost like a walking dead, with no soul in her..just living for the sake of living until edward came back to her. she was so afraid of him leaving her again that the trust was lost in some ways.

would i be like this if he leaves me? i guess i would...being a living dead for a real long time i guess...he'd be away for 10 days in dec..think its a good time to live without him...experience what its like...prepare myself for the worst...ha..silly right..this month is his ord month..fast...

im just wondering over and over again, would we really see rainbow ever again like we saw 1 on friday evening? it was beautiful..and we both started taking pictures in the car...

you know its really a long journey for us, and none of us could commit to what would happen in the future...none of us dares to...this makes me feel like this relationship is just going on without an outcome...im prepared to just wait for something to happen..

but during this wait, i might just start to draw myself out of this whole thing to protect myself...its a defensive nature in me...i comes naturally...

i just have to sit and wait for something to happen..

work
its damn admin...sickening....85% is admin and the remaining marketing..but there's been changes in my job scope..now they want me to do job hunt for our clients and will be paid commission..moving on, i might need to do sales for them in the immigration portion..but i hate sales....working with women is horrendous..their temperaments when they get stress up is intolerable..am i like this? its irritating...i cant stand it....im not goingto let this be me..

im still not quite used to working with women..u never know whats in their agenda..i wonder how long would i be here...but i definitely wont leave without a job..afterall this coy is not intolerable..

i've got a pimple on my chin...its so big!! how to take pictures on sat?? not pretty already..coming sat's the graduation..haha...i've gotten the white long sleeves shirt and black pants for the occasion..

i felt most touch when wei told me not to worry abt the parking fees this coming sat, we're going to be there the whole day man..its going to be ex....he said he'd pay and he wants to attend the graduation so he can take lots of pictures for me..."just go for the graduation can already". its a small issue, but its what he says that makes me feel most touched...how he'd go miles to get things done for me and people around me....i told him he may need to pick pris n yogesh (if andy is not going to do that) he also say no problem..haha...

deep down i thot to myself, i'd be most happy to attend his graduation too....thats if it overcomes the other "ifs"...

yogesh is coming back, im looking forward to having the 4 of us at the mac again..haha..its been a long time since all of us went there....

anyways, i've gotten a new hp...nokia e61i..haha..its huge, but the reason why i got this hp is cuz its got WIFI and wei is using it..haha..so now im officially broke...luckily last mth's pay came in..but gotta tighten my pockets for awhile...

i've also booked air tickets for chinese new year...with my family..there's no point in us spending it here..not much relatives anyways..but, the bad side is, i cant spend with with wei..again..we haven spent new year together for 2 years...but i do look forward to it....its been sometime since i went for a holiday..

its monday tomorrow, this week's a 4 day work week.....think im going for a suntan on thurs....ha..and im trying very hard to get the pimple removed.....hmmmm...how??