....my fault...

its monday again! ~locking my brows together tightly, and FROWN~

well, i've got complains about the jerk (the boss) again....

Q: is it my fault that 7pm is located right at the bottom of a daily calendar?
A: No.

Q: is it my fault that he doesnt read things all the way to the bottom?
A: No.

Q: is it my fault that he doesn't bother to check his appointments for the day before leaving the office?
A: No.

He did not bother to see the calendar of appointments set for the day, and its my fault client came and found the doors locked. Now that he lost the contract, he told my manager, "Esther put the appointment right at the bottom, and I did not see it." Asshole! (I used Google calendar, and printed the daily calendar (in BIG BOLD WORDS) out for him to track his appointments while my manager is not around. He was supposed to "HELP".)

I'd been literally baby-sitting him for the entire 2 days. Skype him 30 mins before appointment reaches, sms him to remind him of the appointments after lunch. All these, are not suppose to be my job. I'm not a PA. Its additional initiative, and how appreciated is it. -_-'

Gosh...my fault...

the constant whinning is actually making me rather tired....but I need to vent it...no choice...this is the best mode of vent-media.

Away from that....something I'm very looking forward to...

I'm getting my iphone soon! Hopefully if nothing goes wrong...my cousin living in texas has agreed to get me iphones when she's back...i cant wait for Singtel launch in Sept...besides, its gonna be more expensive. warranty not valid in SG thou, but, since when has a handphone lasted me more than 1 year? *smirk*

Growing older next month...23....7 more years left in the 20s...gotta enjoy it....so is mum....no idea what she needs....(maybe a way to get me home earlier on weekends so she wont call me in the wee hours to scold me...) so frustrating...why? Why cant she just sleep in peace. I'm in safe hands every weekend...

hmmm....dats all folks....

slience

apparently, my prayers weren't answered.

no news....

this week's a busy 1, running a 1.5man show at work for the week. the other 0.5 man, he's the boss, he loves being spoon-fed. so irritating..

i've been getting migraines so often now, i feel almost like my head's going to explode anytime. torturing. think i haven't drank for quite some time, thats y..haha....finding excuses to go for drinks..

yogesh is back! it was a surprise thou, never expected him to come back suddenly. and leave me a miss call using his SG number and tell me he called from India. Prick. On Sunday I was in a drowsy-state (just woke up), and saw his name appear on my hp...i was kinda stunned & happy that he might be back...heez...and yes! he's back..

think he looks skinner now...pris agreed with me. =)

i somehow realise slience in my relationship, the vacuum slience..none of us speak throughout the time together, not looking at each other..just pure slience...its so quiet, it almost feel like im in the library...

this is not the first time its happening. its the slience that i find so unbearable. but it usually wears off after some time. think our relationship's been existing for too long. we have nothing to do nowadays if our friends are not around. gosh..how??

im so looking forward to this coming Friday, its Good Friday holiday! Yeahz!

come to me......

good luck & money...thats what I'm asking for..

I've wanted to write an entry for this week, but been to tired...

having insomnia every now and then is a strain...its been happening for years by now..I'd never get used to it.

but i finally got to have a fantastic night of sleep...1 night...still not enough..

i went for an interview yesterday, finally 1 that went well, and i left the place happily, hoping for good news in the next few weeks.

~praying, pinning, hoping & wishing to the sun, stars and moon~

so it made my Wednesday rather well, considering the fact that i only slept less than 4 hours the previous night..
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something i need to bitch about is...I've got very retarded programmers doing my Coy's website! and I've got an equally retarded boss..y in the world am i working for him? I'm not like him, not an atom like him at all...

if a web visitor submits a form to you, the FROM entry should be from the visitor (email add/name), the TO should be my work email add....yet....for all submissions, the FROM = TO...brainless fools and yet wants to be a programmer! and his attitude stinks...

even email & tell us (ppl in the coy) we should make up our minds. . .

seriously, need we even tell them what we want for this?? and yet the retarded boss can keep quiet after reading the email....~gosh~

he likes to pay & get suan-ed...not me...arghh...
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just hope to hear some good news soon from the interview.....its a rainy march....if i weren't working, I'd be hibernating at times when i can close my eyes & sleep dreamless-ly for hours...

now, i just want the day to end soon & its FRIDAY!

...selfish vs self-less...fair vs unfair....

I'm reading this book titled - My Sister's Keeper...Recommended by one of my friends.

A very touching yet tear-jerking story.

Kate, is diagnosed with Acute Promyelocytic Leukemia (APL). Anna, her younger sister, is somewhat born because of Kate. Anna's 'created' via In Vitro Fertilization (IVF) - meaning she has the exact same genes as Kate. The minute she's born, she brought to another operation in order to save her sister.

Now that Anna's 13, Kate's condition has worsened over the years. She's got kidney failure and requires immediate transplant. Over the years, her parents have never once asked Anna if she's a willing party to donate her organs, in fact, she felt used her entire life. But she loves her family. Very contridicting. So she decides that she wants to sue her parents for the use of her body. So far, there's where I stopped. Half way through the book.

Each chapter of the book is named after the characters. Meaning, it describes the actions and emotions of the particular character. I like how its written. It gives you perspectives of everyone involved, gives you a feel of what it is like to be in each individual's shoes.

Actually, I do know the ending already. My friend told me. But I just want to read and see how exactly good it is.

I like it...

Monday, March 3, 2008 - Brotherhood is Priceless

I'm watching a show online as I'm writing this blog - Revolving Doors of Vengeance.

It's the typical story of rich man with spoilt sons and a huge family business. The attraction of this show is, 3 selfish brothers can turn into self-less individuals, and build up their brotherhood from scratch and their family business. I like such heart-warming drama. It shows the kind of siblings love in a family. In fact, I really wonder, does it really exists, especially in a rich family.

I wonder if my brothers and I will be fighting in a law suit in future for our parent's inheritance. But I hope not. I've always repeatedly tell my parents, be fair and state it in their will. It saves me alot of trouble. Money is never worth it. Brotherhood is more important.Till now I'm only half way through the show. But, its been good so far. I'm hooked. As usual.
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At work today, bored - is a norm.

I went for an interview for the position of Junior Secretary. I'm not sure what prompted me to try out for that. I guess I've been rather lost and wondering what I can and what I should do. So I wanted to try out all kinds of interview, and just go for whichever I'm comfortable with.

In the past, I always wanted to climb the corporate ladder. But now, I'm kinda out of gas. Besides, at the end of the day, so what if I'm right at the top but I'm not happy. So now, I guess, which ever job pays me well enough, and gives me the most job satisfaction, I'd stay with it. Afterall, being happy is most important isn't it.
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I've taken the first step to doing sales. I told my manager to start training me for sales from tomorrow onwards. Somehow my gut tells me I will be stuck here for some time. So I might as well embrace new job and challenges. Ey, I've grown up leh...ha...

I just hope that this new thing will uncover the unknown strengths in me. Moving towards the new future.....cheers!
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I had a nightmare last night. A horrible 1. I dreamt about wei, he passed away suddenly. Its all a blur. All I could remember was I was hysterical and everyone was crowding around me. I was crying painfully and fainted. That's when I woke. I was so darn sad. It affected my mood totally for today. But, lucky its just a dream.

that's all for now...ciaoz....

Thursday, February 28, 2008 - news...reads...

im kinda free at work today..

so it kinda made me wanna do this blog..

now - reading news on channel news asia, an everyday routine as i hate reading it on newspapers, too chunky...

i came across my friend's blog entry, talking about recession in the US and something that a minister said. - i agree with her.the recession will happen, the world is too intertwined all thanks to globalization.

now everything that happens has a dominoes effect. time to tighten your pockets and brave the storm. everyone faces different effects.

inflation...making things more expensive and some 3rd world countries are starving due to the increasing prices of food.

everything is getting more expensive and no way where the poor can afford. the poor just gets poorer.

enough of that...

about my other reads will be a storybook that I'm currently reading - The Red Dahlia by .

Its re-written and originates from the murder case many years back - The Black Dahlia.

Now halfway through it, not too bad thou...

This story's about a girl found mutilated, a copycat murder case back in the 40s, The Black Dahlia. The case was never solved.

The murderer leaves no traces of evidence, and instead sends anonymous letters with cut-out letters from magazines and newspapers to challenge the authorities.

I kinda like the storyline - murder, mutilated corpse, the every description of investigation and emotions of every character.

Thats the kind of genre I read most of the time.I also recently got 2 books - My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult & 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. I can't wait to start reading these books.....

so much for now....