graduation is finally over....tiring man
it was fun when we all helped each other with the gowns..it was a very long ceremony..so tiring to sit there....
im glad yogesh came back, and all 4 of us are gathered together again...
im glad wei came to the ceremony....
im glad we got to take a pic with krishna..
before the graduation i was rather worried about the outcome of my degree...i got 2nd lower..so ok lar...ha..im not the study type....good enough already..overall, im glad its all over....we're going to have dinner with yogesh tonight...he's going back on tuesday..so fast..everyone's embarking on their career after graduation....and wonder when is the next time we'd see him...but i believe pris, sarah & i will still make it a point to catch up every now and then, and not forgetting jo & krishna of course...
past week
for the past week, i've been out almost every night..meet wei...and pris & yogesh to collect our gowns.
i've been reading stephine meyer's books....she's an author of children books...haha..but, its interesting..after reading her stories, i relate myself to the main character of the book, Bella. how she was torn apart from her loved one and how she struggle to make herself stronger by leaning on her friend..she's almost like a walking dead, with no soul in her..just living for the sake of living until edward came back to her. she was so afraid of him leaving her again that the trust was lost in some ways.
would i be like this if he leaves me? i guess i would...being a living dead for a real long time i guess...he'd be away for 10 days in dec..think its a good time to live without him...experience what its like...prepare myself for the worst...ha..silly right..this month is his ord month..fast...
im just wondering over and over again, would we really see rainbow ever again like we saw 1 on friday evening? it was beautiful..and we both started taking pictures in the car...
you know its really a long journey for us, and none of us could commit to what would happen in the future...none of us dares to...this makes me feel like this relationship is just going on without an outcome...im prepared to just wait for something to happen..
but during this wait, i might just start to draw myself out of this whole thing to protect myself...its a defensive nature in me...i comes naturally...
i just have to sit and wait for something to happen..
work
its damn admin...sickening....85% is admin and the remaining marketing..but there's been changes in my job scope..now they want me to do job hunt for our clients and will be paid commission..moving on, i might need to do sales for them in the immigration portion..but i hate sales....working with women is horrendous..their temperaments when they get stress up is intolerable..am i like this? its irritating...i cant stand it....im not goingto let this be me..
im still not quite used to working with women..u never know whats in their agenda..i wonder how long would i be here...but i definitely wont leave without a job..afterall this coy is not intolerable..
