back from my CNY trip - Bangkok

its a darn tiring trip..

but can't really make out whether its fun or not..ha..kinda complicated & mixed feelings..

i guess it would've been a better trip if its just us, my family..

firstly, my dad is a man filled with responsibility & concern for others...but sometimes he kinda over-do it, and make people hard to appreciate his doings.

good intention, bad execution. i sort of flare up at him a couple of times the past few days, unintentionally..so now im quite feeling guilty..ha..probably im too tired...i'd make it up to him..

another thing is, mum, full of complains, think i inherited some of it from her..haha...donno if its good or bad..

but on the whole, its time spent with everyone, except for my brother who didnt go cuz of exams..

we bought a whole lot of things, took lotsa face-tired pictures..ha..so damn ugly with the eye bags & dark circles..we all lack sleep...

during these few days, i missed him damn alot..got tngs for almost everyone ard me, hopefully i didnt forget anyone. ha.

dad spoke to me about marriage yesterday, the topic i hated most. but he meant well, but i dont feel comfortable about it.

well, i kinda like my life now, so i don't see the point in talking about this now. besides, my love-life future is still stuck in a black tunnel. its not something i would want to think about. its too frustrating, i rather avoid it.

he's been trying to talk to me about this for a long time, i just simply brush it off by talking about something else. arghhh! i know he's got plans for us, but i just hope that they could put down their worries abit and start enjoying life now that they're healthy. thats the only wish i have for them, to stay healthy and enjoy life & be happy every single second.

its during this trip that i finally realised, we've all grown, i've grown older, they've also grown older and have new worries and hopes.

now that im back from this trip, i just hope to start everything all over again. get a new job, build a new relationship with the family. its time to let them understand what we kids hope for them. it seems to me, they only have worries and nothing else. its time they look at things in a different light.

i'd get the pictures out in another few days, let me have my piece of rest first, so darn tired. ha..gotta work tomorrow, damn sian..V day's coming, wonder if we're celebrating....

anyways, have a prosperous & happy new life this new year! muacks!