another sunday afternoon..

i pinned for weekend to come the whole of last week..

work was as usual, boring..but im telling myself to carry on..i believe something interesting will come 1 day. last friday my boss told me, i'd be getting busy in days to come as they're looking for ways to increase sales...lets hope they have more marketing activities...

today's sunday, and i spend my day watching show..haha..there's this hongkong drama series, Drive of Life. this story is about 3 brothers who worked towards their dream of growing their car business. and 2 of the 3 brothers went to hongkong when they're young, leaving 1 behind to look after their parents.

the eldest fought for his success while in hongkong, while the 1 in their hometown struggled with life. in the end, the son of the rich man liquated the business overnight and they all had to start from scratch again.

that's when you get to see the sibilings lending a helping hand to each other in times of need. bonding themselves together to make their dreams come true. its a story worth watching, thou not everyone is so lucky to get such good family, but it happens in little corners that we don't get to see.

this story is very much focused on family and how they endure and persist to fight for what they want and wished for. its worth watching for the story line thou its a rather long story.

i've been searching for a new hp, i sold my samsung...too problematic..but there seems to be just too many hps out there, i donno which to get. ha..so im tnking of getting wat my darling has, E61i, its big, but im in love with the wifi..best thing is, if i get that, i'd be using the same hp with him..haha...

this relationship is making me growing more dependant on him, is it good or bad? am i falling into the curse 3 years back? when the pillar suddenly left & i was stranded in the middle of the sea for awhile before i picked myself up again. it was a period of demoralisation, made me feel so damn weak.

at many points of time, i find myself thinking, what happens if in the end, we can't work out..is the outcome really important to me? or is it the process of being together now that matters? what if either one of us decides to leave for the better good? that what would this few years mean to us? life would be so darn different, almost like a 360 degrees turn..how would i get through it if it happens? then what have we both been working towards this 5 years? its an aimless relationship, i have no idea where we're heading, all i know is i just want it to exist as long as im alive. does he think likewise? or is it a 1 sided thing?

i know im digging problems for myself..but, sometimes the thought just comes. not once or twice, but almost everytime after meeting him..i dread the feeling of leaving for him..WOMEN..arghh..