first & the last?

today's my 1st day of work n i'm utterly disappointed & frustrated!

firstly, i don't have any enthusiasm towards this job......i tried cultivating it for 1 week...

secondly, once i step into the office. it doesnt feel right. i even took the wrong bus on the way to the office! its my fault for being so blur thou.

they had a short department update meeting & i was introduced to everyone in the team. after which i was led to my future work station after the girl leaves. all of a sudden, this admin lady wrote a note n it read "put your hp on slient mode".

then, the orientation by this HR cum PA donkey (female, btw). this was when i reali determined, this is not my job AT ALL....... perhaps im too pampered to start with.

1. cleaning duties, key master duty etc.
2. she will comment on ur dressing even when the bosses can't be bothered, she said it herself.

then the handover session......

1. its ALL admin work. i had enough it it already, really. there's not threshold level to tolerate any administrative work in me. abit, i can understand, its part n parcel of work, but the entire handover!? NO WAY!

2. i was told the big boss screams at you in the face and bangs tables in meetings, throw things in your face when u do thing wrongly.....(real jerk isn't it)

3. the boss will walk ard the office scouting for untidy tables & mess it up even further, forcing you to clean it. (where in the world did he come from anyways?)

i din believe it initially, but when he boss comes out of his room, EVERYONE kept quiet and virtually locked their eyes on their PCs. and the girl blurted out "oh, shit" when boss was standing behind our cubicle talking to another fellow colleague. i noticed him walking to every corner in the office to 'scan' for 'targets' in a sickeningly nasty look.

nothing in this coy attracts me any more, nor is it motivating in any sense. i've tried accepting the 5.5 work week fact & accepted this job. i've compromised, not alot but to me, its a big psychological barrier.

then now the cleaning shit n stuff...OMG! i can't stand a single minute in that bloody office!

and i forgot to mention, its freaking quiet, worse than a national library.

its really not a good thing to just feel like tendering on just the 1st day of work, but, nothing in that coy interests me. NOTHING. i seriously prefer more hands-on product marketing.

i've started looking for a job again. this time i seriously hope for something to be right. where have all the jobs gone!