when cohabiting isn't enough..

Seeing my friend, who had been living with her bankrupt boyfriend for near 5 years, and still unmarried - I feel kinda bad for her. She's turning 30 this year.

Its obvious that she is suppressing her desire to get married. Saying things like I just want a simple ROM and dinner with close friends. But in her eyes, its filled with envy and doubt.

Few years back when I just knew her, she was happy with her 'then' life.

Today, she asks questions like, "What is exactly done during a facial? What is Medicure and Pedicure?"

At times during the wedding we attended yesterday, she said, "I want my dinner done in ...", "I want my wedding pictures taken." and also asked what kind of gown she can wear to hide her tattoos. She don't just want a simple wedding, she wants it to be memorable. A day to call it hers.

Even Wei can see it. Only her jobless boyfriend is blinded.

It caught me thinking, "Would that happen to me?"

Girls, we gotta admit, we would want to settle down at some point of time. Its just a matter of time, its a phase we all go through. I believe majority including me would have poundered, "Will he marry me?".

Being in this relationship for near 6 years, I frequently wonder if he will waste my youth. We still have many years ahead before we can afford to settle down, that is provided he has this thought. In my previous entries, I did ask this question too. There's too many 'what-ifs'. Its quite scary to think, what if another 4 years down the road and he is still not ready? I don't want to be a wrinkled bride. *imagine myself wrinkled, wearing a wedding gown*

Quite unpleasant.

So, questions of the blog - What would you do if:
1. This man/girl you're with is wasting your youth?
2. He's avoiding his next phase in life with you?

It can be easy to answer, it won't be easy to do it.