love..deaths...funerals - screw 2007

finally december...then x'mas then new year..hurray..screw 2007...

its been a lousy year...so many deaths around me...

just attended a funeral yesterday, my dad's mentor, my grandpa's ex-worker's son..41 yrs old...quite a sad background..heard that dad's mentor (the deceased's dad) has a wife who's rather pretty but mental...and his son (the deceased) fell during his NS days, injured his head and became a retard..after being a retard for 20 over years, the old injury came back and claimed his life...and there goes, 'pop' and nothing's left...

that's life people...

previously, think during the 3rd week in november, my mum's neighbour's husband died suddenly in Malaysia, heart attack..a few seconds..'pop' and gone..he left behind 1 daughter about 12 yrs, 1 son of i think only 4 yrs old, and another new born...and a mother & wife..

again, that's life...poor thing right..that's why, SCREW 2007...

and today...im gonna talk about triangle love relationship..sad to say, such things happen in this world..no offence to anyone, no finger-pointing or whatsoever..just a thot..

A has a gf B, and A also has a gf C who's a 3rd party..

put yourself in the shoe of B..how would you feel if you found out that your loved 1 is loving someone else at the same time? You're not the only 1 that you think you are in his life, the unique, special girl/boy..it sucks isn't it...well, it really sucks when B treats A like diamond and gives her all in that relationship...but, if B is a self-centered notorious woman..then well, its fine then....B deserves it then..

then, put yourself in the shoe of C, the 3rd party..some may feel that she's pitiful and has to carry this 'underground' relationship..but, why in the 1st place do you want to fall into this silly trap? knowing that the nail on the wall will hurt you when u knock against it, y don't you avoid it and find a better wall..probably a cushioned-wall like wat woodbridge has...

Will anyone holding the character of C ever put herself in the shoes of B? you're all of the same sex..taking for instance now that, its a BGR...both B & C are all women who in someway yearn for a man's only love..so how painful would it be to know that...its now being shared...

i donno about the others, but i wont be able to take it if i know that my man's a 'shared man'..i'd be more than in a hurry to ditch him, cry and carry the pain n move on till i heal..no one shares my man..not in any lifetime..

lastly A, would a genuine good man want to hurt his so-called 'only love'? is there such thing as 'only love' in a man's mental dictionary? its subjective...my conclusion on this is, if a man has a good, giving gf, he/she jolly well appreciates him/her n love with all their might...its hard to come by..don only cherish him/her when you lose it..its pointless n always too late..

its a subjective thot, so its just pure mine with no discrimination...love is such a...pain in the ass, but yet ppl revolve ard it..again..thats life..

hmm...i just wish that such drama won't ever happen in any of my life..cuz if it does, its the end of my trust in love that i built up these years..it'd be all gone n forever gone..my life's too revolved ard him..tooo much..its like a london bridge, if it breaks, it takes years and years of building before it all goes back to norm..but norm will never be the norm like before...people change..

just days ago, i was talking to my youngest brother, he told me, stop revolving my life so much ard him...

easier said than done...my small grps of friends have their own clicks n dates...and its hard that we meet...and seriously, i don trust ppl outside my circle..its hard to meet new people..but, i do haf this feeling that..somehow, subconsciously, i do feel that a small portion of me is drawing out, to protect myself..its so unpredictable that i think i want to protect myself, reduce the aftermath..

after this long write, im gonna watch heroes season 2...its god-damning nice! and if anyone comes across a school that offers professional certificate in copywriting, please email me..